Back in the US of A

[nico1908]

Worked the ITB Berlin last week. Got back yesterday afternoon. Despite a two hour layover in ATL, my baggage got stuck - probably because the airport authorities decided it needed searching. They broke the lock to get into the suitcase, and I am thoroughly pissed off. I've about had it with this paranoid country and I'm beginning to seriously contemplate moving back to Germany. After all, I was never one of those people who dreamed of living in the States. I only moved here because of my husband. And since the marriage is basically non-existent anymore, I really don't have a reason to stay. 

Comments

[piratesmile331.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that happened to you... Welcome back, for what it's worth.

[nico1908.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

Sorry to be so gloomy. :(

[catsintheattic.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear that you are going through this. *hugs*

I'm not that surprised - your past posts were leading to the day when you would at least consider this decision.

Whatever you do, take your time to think it over and to get prepared. If you need to talk things through, I'm there. I know that I sometimes don't answer comments/emails as quickly as I want to, but I'd try my best.

*hugs you again*

[nico1908.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hugs back*

I'm not going to rush anything. I have to stay married for another two years for social security reasons, and I have two more years on my greencard, so I'll give it until 2010...

[catsintheattic.livejournal.com]

Now, that's not exactly a short decision period. *nods*

On the other hand, if you come to a conclusion before 2010, you could always stay married on paper and live in the US until your greencard is used up, no?

[nico1908.livejournal.com]

you could always stay married on paper and live in the US until your greencard is used up, no?

Sure - if I could find a job that pays enough to support myself. I've started putting my feelers out, but this is just a bad area for office employment. And right now is a bad time, too, economy-wise. I'd ask for a raise, but our membership drop-out rate is increasing and the new member rate is decreasing - and I'm too much of a coward to tell them that I'll quit if they don't pay me more (or at least give me benefits). I could tell my boss I'll look for a new job, but she's no fool; she knows there are none out there for senior office workers like myself.

It's just an all-around unsatisafctory situation. I've never felt so stuck and indecisive in my life, and I've never experienced such extreme moodswings either. They're horrible. :(